Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Sometimes You Have To Remember where you Started

I'm officially over half way done with radiation and as I told my physical therapist today, my foot is cooked. Literally it is beyond done and is getting very red and painful. I sent pictures of it to my surgeon on Monday who was actually quite happy with its appearance considering how far into radiation I am. She has a way of always making me feel better, I just wish she wasn't 3000 miles away. However, I will be flying out to NYC again in May for my post radiation visit. Anyways, back to my now panfried ( as opposed to cryovacced like it was earlier) ankle. For the last few days I have been complainaing about how badly lefty's heel hurts when I walk or touch it or anything of the sort. I now have a contraption to keep the bedsheets off of it. I am down to one pair of shoes from two and actually had one of the radiation people think that i might wind up back on crutches by the end of treatment- um, hell no -is my response to that. Fortunately, for me my doctor thought that was crazy too, but it doesn't remove the issue that really lefty's heel hurts. Then the other day I was reading through my old blog and I came to the post where I describe feeling my heel for the first time. I so clearly remember that day and how happy I was to feel my foot and realize that even though lefty is now scarred for life, it is still a part of me, still works and I can still direct it to do mostly what I want. Therefore, I have decided to transmute this current pain into celebrating the above facts and see where that gets me. Meanwhile i will continue copious use of aloe to hopefully help the whole thing.


Anonymous said...

I am sorry you are in a constant feeling of sunburn. I wish there was something I could do to help, but can't wait to see you in NY.

Did you make it for delivery?


Anonymous said...

Poor foot... Keep looking up, though. One pair of shoes is better than no pair of shoes!

Lisa D