Monday, November 10, 2008

It's That Time Again

I'm back in NYC for my every 6 month check up and scans.  I wish that I was a better writer because then maybe I could describe how I feel about these apts, but as it is I do the best I can.  I pretend that these visits to NYC are pleasure, I fill them with social visits.  I smile, I laugh, I look normal, but .....  underneath it all is the everpresent fear that I might get bad news.  I have known the odds from the beginning and while they are in general in my favor, the risk that my disease will come back or spread isn't zero, not even close. The results if it does- Catastrophic.   So, I head to MSKCC, today, I'll have my MRI and run on a treadmill for my exercise testing, tomorrow they PET/CT practically my whole body then I see my doc.  I'll know the results by then.

Wish me luck


KTP said...

good luck!

rlbates said...

Best of luck!

Anonymous said...

Hi Lisa, In spite of the normaal butterflies in your tummy (and ours)we know you will get a clean bill of health! Hold on to that thought. Ck and RFK

JaxMom said...

Wish I could be there. Hope you have some fun. Post/call/email if you want tomorrow. We should be around.

Thanks for my comment!

Bernadette said...

I know that everything will be fine, but I'm sending you best wishes anyway!