Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Not really done!

Today I endured almost 10 hours of tests.  I was poked prodded, scanned, talked too and declared still healthy.  Great News, I know!

But, there was a but!  I hate exceptions!  Today's was pointed.  My achilles tendon is inflamed!  It has hurt after my last few runs, it is stiff EVERY day.  There is a spot that lights up on the MRI.  It should be OK, but it isn't normal and I have to be careful.

My surgeon says I am healthy beyond what she ever expected.  My sensation, my strength at my ankle given that my tumor was on the nerve is apparently amazing.  I love that, but...  The but is my ankle has been radiated and cut up, it will never be normal.  No act of will on my part will make it so.

I know I shouldn't be sad, but I am.  I want this behind me.  I want to not have limits placed on me; however, sadly my reality is different.  If I didn't respect my surgeon so much I'd have fought this, but I know she knows me, she knows my ankle, and she's worried.  A ruptured radiated achilles would be BAD.  I can accept limitations to avoid that. I can, really!

So, the good news I'm healthy. The bad news, I have to be careful.

I can deal.  Getting and recovering from cancer in my ankle woke me up from being in horrible shape.  A caution isn't a bad thing.  I'm good, really I swear I am!

7 comments:

Jodi said...

Ah...now I understand the trip. I'd lost something along the way. Great news and hey, you are much, much healthier than a lot of us who haven't gone through what you did. Running is so hard on the body, no matter what you have or haven't had removed. You are an inspiration!

Jabulani said...

It's a trite thing to say at least you have the ankle, but I cannot help but admire you for the tenacity you've shown in this situation. Even now, when faced with a hiccup, you are prepared to take the advice of your surgeon and be careful.
Onwards and upwards, one step (or pace) at a time. Soon, soon this race will end too.

JaxMom said...

Limitations stink, that's for sure. Did she limit swimming and biking, or just a take it easy on the running?

Love you!!!!
Suz

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